Nothing new under the sun

Funny to think about isn't it?

There is nothing that will ever be new and not already thought or written. We all look a little different but when it comes down to it, we really are all the same.

We all have a heart, we all have a soul. We all have a body, we all have a mind.

I'm realizing the older I get, I can't live beyond what I believe. I know how important it is to have spiritual maturity but will it ever fully blossom?  My beliefs about fulfillment, satisfaction, security and peace are anchored in the word of God. I believe that.  What is my problem here then?

Thoughts. I have tried so hard to control my thought life- I have been in constant struggle for the control of my mind. The only conclusion I have come to is that I must not fully understand my identity in Christ.  The essence of what I'm trying to say is, I truly desire to live like Christ by way of faith. I believe with all my heart, mind and soul that we were designed to live in fellowship with God.  I'm getting there.  My husband said to me the other day, "honey, the older we get, the more spiritually mature we should become."

I think my problem is that I need to be in the scriptures more and I need to be spending more time in prayer. I don't know where I read this but it made an impact in my life.  It is this:

When man listens God speaks

When man obeys, God acts

When man prayes, God empowers.

So I go.  I will go find the fruits of the spirit. 

"As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." 

Joshua 24: 15

I spend most of my time as a stranger-

I wish I had a map for my thoughts. Do you ever just think something then feel really bad for thinking it? I do. I do it all the time but by the time I realize that I should not be thinking it, it's to late. Now, I'm realizing it's so hard to forget your own thoughts. They are with you always.  I have said it before and I'll say it again- It's hard to be me. It's always been. I stumble, I crack. BUT, I am forgiven, I know that Jesus Christ saves, I feel my Heavenly Fathers Grace and I know I have been set free.

The way a girl thinks of her body

I am trying to crack the fat loss code

What diet will it be this week?  How long will it take for my last beautiful 14 pounds of love to see the feelings are not mutual.  My husband tells me in very loving tone, "honey, your body will not change if you keep doing the same old things."  Rocket science here.  I just don't know if I will ever truely "get" it.  The whole thought of body self image.  I think people who are skinny are 2 very special types of people:
1) Miserable, boring and anal.
2) Sharp, perfect people who have a little self-control.
I am neither!

I read this book, "Do you think I'm Beautiful" by Angela Thomas.  I didn't think it was very good.  I can't tell you why.  I just can't put my finger on it.  What I do know is, we have a big problem in this country with the way women look and feel about their bodies.  We are all beautiful and breathtaking in our own unique way.  Why is it that we can not understand and grasp that.  What is the magical answer to this.  What is it?

Practical Living- Giving birth to little apples

Sometimes I wonder what might have been if I could  just go back in time and change one day, one minute in time, or even one silly little second. Sometimes I wonder about things I have no business wondering about at all.  Sometimes I try so hard not to think about something and it only makes me think about it more.  Sometimes I don't think of anything other than eternity and that leads straight to an ice pick headache.   So today, I will think to myself- It's a beautiful day that the Lord has made.  I will learn from my mistakes, grow from my weaknesses and continue to be fanciful and practical.  You see, half my thought life is daydreaming fiction and the other half is being a child of God, wife, lover, mommy, teacher of five children, friend, housekeeper, daughter, sister, grand daughter (in that order) the list goes on.  I love every day and I feel so blessed to be me.  I haven't always liked to be me and that was a big conflict.  It is what it is. So it is.